I Can't Think of Anything

WOW i haven't updated in a while... so, umm, i have many stories... this one crazy bitch at work wasted a half an hour of my time trying to haggle with me over used books. Then she tried to shame me into giving a discount, then she tried to con me into giving a discount, then she ignored me and spoke past me to someone else, who also became pissed with her, and left the store. I was flushed with anger, it was that bad, and if you know me, i don't get mad easily. So, as you see, i love the store, and do alot for it. you would think that i would earn some kind of respect from working with the conroy's for how many years now, i think i am coming around 5-6 years... yeah, 5 to 6 years, yet i still get some sense of distrust from Danielle, which makes me sad. Ok, so then I check the schedual to make sure when i am working next... and the time is changed from what i was working at the beginning of the week, 11-2, and it is changed to 8-11, ok, i didn't lose any hours, so i didn't mind, it just meant i was going to have to get up early. Like i said in my last entry, my parents have been on vacation, and they had just gotten back the morning before i had to work the 8-11 shift. and i call my parents asking them if they could pick me up for work in the morning... But now here is a side story: My cat, Estelle, had just had a single kitten right before my parents left, so we asked our neighbor to help us out, and he said he would feed the cats and check up on everything else. But at some point, Estelle had cut through the plastic that is my bathroom window (it is plastic because Simon has yet to fix it even after months of asking nicely), and she left the kitten cold and alone. I know this is terrible, but it is Estelle's first heat, and she only had one kitten survive birth... Now back to the main story. My parents say that they need to have someone stay up all night with the kitten, and my dad would love to do that, but he has to work the next day , and he had just traveled 13 hours, which is tiring in itself. So my mom comes to get me, (mind you, i haven't stayed at home at all scince the beginning of college) and my dad and I take shifts all night to hold the kitten and feed it and make sure it doesn't die. So morning comes around, and i am running on 3 hours of sleep, and i take a shower, and my mom drives me over to Conroy's to work... and i see 4 cars, Simon, John, Meghan, and Whitney. I was supposed to be working with Whitney, and Simon wouldn't put three people on for Sunday Morning would he? No, i get in, and Whitney asks if i am working today... so i go in the backroom and simon is there on the phone and I see that the shifts have been changed! i am not on AT ALL!!!! remember, i have been working with these people for 5 years... and simon forgets to call me still to tell me that he took my hours away, this means that i have 4 HOURS THIS WEEK!!! i feel like they take advantage of me, like, i'll bike 40 min for a two hours shift...and not complain when i end up working alone. I'll deal with customers from hell for a half an hour, and ruin my whole night with that one event! I'll even not complain when he fucking changes my hours WITH OUT TELLING ME!!!!! see, i am being used... and it is pissing me off. But, now for a happier note, my mom's boss has a cat who just had kittens and they offered to take our kitten. And my dad and I drive to thier house, and when we bring the kitten into the barn, the mother cat goes out of her way to take the kitten and clean it up... it made my day so much better!
So then, that was my bitching part... but as for my last weekend, it was chella packed! i seriously lived with her... it was intense. And, we have been hanging out more and more with Nick Kelly, a horny bisexual who is one of derrick's friends. He seriously needs to get some. Any slightly non-clothed guy turns him on, it is saddening. I hope i wasn't coming across like that in my first days of coming out as Bi.

As for the whole room mate thing, i am going to request a new roomie next semester. It isn't that i have an issue with Cenz, it is just that we don't mesh, like, seriously don't mesh. It is just a stress that I don't need.
I guess i have also had a really gay filled week. First, I had the Coming Out Picnic, which was so much fun... i love just hanging out with friends, we played red rover, and had some really disgusting food, it was great. There was just one thing that made me irritated, Chella's cousin, Paul, bashed Reality Check, which means so much to me, i hate hearing people insult so ignorantly the centerpiece of my life. Seriously, my life, my mind, my EVERYTHING, would not be the same with out all that Reality Check has given me. But things got better, and alot better! After the picnic, Erica and I hung out, I really love that girl!!! we always have so much fun, i help feed her, then we hang out, then we share poetry, which I love her even more for! Then, we sat on the bench and talked about life... She always apoligizes for gushing about Jen, and i don't want her to feel sorry about it, it makes her happy, then she has every right to shout it out to the world, if something made me that happy, i would never stop talking about it.
So then we sat out on the bench and talked about life, which, again, i love her for.

Then, the next night, i went to the Candle Light Vigil for Matthew Shepard, which was great... but, on the way back, i heard someone scream across the road to their friend that they are "gay" as an insult... i had lots of harsh words on the edge of my tounge, but i didn't wanna have any huge conflict over someone's stupidity.

As for some major excitement, i love college, i was looking through the course handbook, and i seriously orgasmed 20 times... it was amazing... There are so many literature, and music, and french, and philosophy, it all is amazing.

Ok, i think that is all for now... oh yeah, i plan on dying my hair green like my icon... i think it would look cool... what do you all think?

Ok... 5 things I miss...
1. Derrick
2. My sanity
3. Intimacy
4. Love
5. you...